2-3 minutes inside my head ~ yes I have an inner trialogue ~ it sounds like this
What is the crux of your discontent?
i am dissatisfied with my achievements or lack thereof.
That sense derives from your imagined perception of someone else’s concept of you, not your concept of yourself. Let it go.
ok. trying that. still dissatisfied.
“Why do you whisper when you need to shout?” from ‘Wisely and Slow’
i judge my voice to be worthy only of a whisper for many reasons. i hide myself for many reasons. i prefer to keep my circles and the sense of my world small.
I deeply dislike the ‘judgy’ bits of myself and would prefer the discipline of perception over judgement.
on a good day i sometimes manage this.
Maybe I’ll try talking at normal volume and see how that goes.
when will it be possible to get tattoos again?
Who fucking knows.
While I’m at it I should definitely get that sleeve of all my favorite quotes as well and an eclipse across my knuckles and the three symbols from By Chance Or Providence on the back of my neck or behind an ear. And a pinguicula laueana flower with a bee on it and a swarm of bees wrapping to a hive that’s the foundation of a tower with a crescent moon hanging above it on my back.
if i sell all my possessions and live in my car i might be able to afford all that and continue giving to the causes i care about.
I should devote myself to learning a new instrument.
yes but i can’t stand the terrible noises at the outset of the learning curve.
That shouldn’t stop me.
Yea I should do it anyway. Good for the mind.
Making a mental note that I might follow up on.
maybe i’ll just stick to singing. that used to be familiar and comforting and it would be a good straight line in.
I vehemently dislike straight lines.
that’s not actually true.
… Well I dislike them conceptually at the very least …
the bit about mood?
Yea that one.
“I am terminally afflicted with mood.”
mood is a luxury.
I want to work for RoguePrintCo. They make me laugh constantly.
Guess that’s right out.
Thank you for being here
What follows is a little aggregate of people I’m reading things by or about and following (in the web way not the creeper way, sheesh.) and other bits and pieces I’m engaging ~
Melissa Madara ~ @Saint.Jayne on instagram
Taurin Clarke ~ artist who does a lot of cover work for comics and has the best insta and twitter handle @muaadib
Nicole Cardoza ~ yoga inspiration, general inspiration, general brilliance
This fucking song (!!!)